October 25, 2005

Prozac Nation

I am always reluctant to say too much about myself on this thing. But then again all the information I have I am totally willing to give up when asked, so here. You didn't ask, but if you did here it is.

I haven't been doing too well lately. I usually know at least some way to make myself feel better, or at least realize what it was that was making me feel bad and try to make the situation better. I have been trying. Really hard. And I don't feel better. So I decided to do something about it. It makes me nervous, but I can't feel like this everyday. There are so many better things that I could be doing than feeling like shit.

On a better note, I had a party on Saturday and it was alot of fun! Thank you to everyone who came, I had a blast! It is so nice to have alot of people I love in the same place at the same time.

Anna and I have our first meeting about the show tonight. I am excited to get more people than my head involved! Yea!

October 18, 2005

Broken Click Wheel

Hmmmm... Blah. That is about it.

I am so excited about my show! I talked to John briefly about it. John is writing it. He has started and it sounds beautiful! It was so dead on with what I was talking about. I almost started crying. It was embarrassing. To me. In my head.

Did I say I was excited? I am excited! I have a gang of 10 now. 5 girls and 5 boys. It is so amazing to be working with a group of people who feel the same way I do and want to do great things in the world. Yea! Okay, I have to study for a class that I haven't been to in 2 weeks. Wish me fun!

October 11, 2005

How Good It Feels To Be Loved By You... Or Something Like That

So how much do I hate school? Soooooo much! I feel like a little kid explaining how much I love my parents. You know, with the arms. The only thing that gets me through it is the idea that I will be out of it soon. And working on my show.

I am so excited for my show! I have a rockstar cast and even if the show sucks, which of course it won't, I still get to spend alot of time in rehearsal with great people. Anna even agreed to co-direct it with me. I am so pumped.

I have to go to class now, but those of you out of school, CALL ME! I need a distraction!

June 26, 2005

Bright Yellow School Buses

Yay for cooler weather! Today I have another day off. On Monday I started at Camp Teko, it is a Jewish summer camp for kids ages 5-12. That is a huge age difference! I teach dance which varies by the age group and the sex. To the girls I make up simply dances that they can learn very quickly and for the boys we play more games and do some break dancing and stuff. It is really hard work, but fun. I have a great satisfaction at night because the kids are learning so much.

It’s great cause I am outside everyday, though it gets really hot sometimes. Often I feel bad for making the kids dance because it is too hot!

That’s about it. I am still loving my apartment! I don’t like being alone, but it is something I have to accept now in life. Well, I am going to go to my dad’s house and play in the water! Hope to hear from you all soon!

June 10, 2005

Shhhhh...

Hello everybody!

I am very bad at this thing. Writing alot. Oh, well. So my show opens tomorrow at the Tony award winning theater "Theatre de la Jeune Lune." It is called "Lettice and Lovage." It is really fun and I hope you all make it!

Things have been fun lately. I moved into my apartment and I love it! It is so cute and I really enjoy coming home to it every night. My neighbors are super chill. It is weird cause one of them just sits out in front of the house all day drinking and listening to music from his car's stereo. Party all day, I guess.

Right now I am sitting at my "work station" and listening to the Current. I really love that station! Then I will watch a movie (or more South Park) then go to bed to try and find a job tomorrow!

I hope you are all enjoyingg this beautiful weather in whatever way you enjoy nice weather!

May 26, 2005

Wine and Black Bean Burgers

Last night was a blast. It sometimes slips my mind how really awesome my friends are. We went to Jitters to celebrate Alexis’ last performance (actually it is her 2nd to last!) and Anna, Elliott, Jack, Tommy, Drew, Keimi, Romelle and Josh were all there. It was wonderful to be surrounded by a group of friends/artists and to talk about life. It is great to be friends with a group of people who are all going through similar things. We are all artists and are so ready to make really great work. I can’t wait!

Rehearsals have been going well. I am trying hard, but it seems like I have a lot more work to do too. The show I am talking about is “Lettice and Lovage” at Jeune Lune. It runs June 10 - July 31. This is what it is about: A dizzy conspiracy erupts between two women, one a wayward tour guide with a complete disregard for anything ordinary, the other a formidable guardian of Truth with an undiscovered penchant for flights of fancy.

It is really funny! I think you all will like it a lot! Come support local, live theater!

May 25, 2005

New Book

So a new page has turned. Well actually it seems as though I went back to a page that I liked and remembered having fun on. I remember the first time that I ever felt bad, about myself or my situation and I remember looking back to when I was happy and felt great about myself. Then I looked at what made those situations what they were. This is something I think everyone should do at some point in time. I did something that I swore I never would. And now I am trying to make up for it. I am doing this so I never, ever do what I did again. Or at least I can see it coming and change my behavior. I am spending lots of time by myself and I really love it. I am ready to move forward and loving every second of it!

I have two teaching jobs solid for next year. It will be great. I think I get a lot out of teaching and it is doing something that actually gives back to the community. It will mean that I won’t be able to do any shows at the U, but I am not so worried. I need to make some money and this will force me to work on my own stuff. I really would like to work on my show and some future stuff. Should be good.

People I haven’t seen in a while, let’s hang out. I regret that I have neglected anyone in my sort of downward spiral. Most importantly, T thank you for the slap in the face that I needed. You are a life saver. I only hope that you will forgive me for any bad feeling you have had that were my fault.

Things are looking up and I hope you are all doing well! Love to all and I hope to see you all soon!